What a CRAZY few weeks

I don't even know where to begin.
Last month we had to go upto Salt Lake for my grandma's funeral. This wasn't a suprise, but it was sad. It was hard watching my Uncle Lynn. I think out of everyone he seemed to take it the hardest.
Michael also decided to throw his first ever full blown temper tantrum the saturday morning of the grave service, so needless to say we had to leave because I didn't want to ruin it for everyone. I was pretty upset but what can you do. I felt like we wasted our money even driving up because we didn't even goto the service. Michael did calm down in time for the luncheon at the restaurant. It was like he was another kid. -- weird!

On October 15, Mike was offered a job at a printing company in Dallas, Texas. We were both excited and we decided that I should tell my boss(s) because I knew there was going to be round #5 of layoffs and to save someone else I offered myself. I have actually wanted out of this department for about a year but because of the economy and the layoffs that have been going on for about a year, I knew that this was not possible.
I have felt uncomfortable to the point of wishing I went to HR to file a complaint about a hostile work environment. But I knew my time there was short and I figured "what was the point" What a fool. I wish I did. I lost my job, but not for the reason I hoped. They decided to not include me in a layoff, but I lost my job for being honest.
For 2 days I was inconsolable. Mike was doing his best to cheer me up and tell me that it doesn't matter. Greenspun was such a great company once upon a time, and it's sad to see what has happened. I used to love my job and going to work, but for the past year, I dreaded it to the point of making myself sick. I felt like there was something wrong with me. I just didn't have the motivation to want to be there, but I was faking it pretty well, or so I thought.

It's been a week, and I still have my moments where I just cry. I am so extremly stressed about money. We just filed chapter 13 bankruptcy and we have NO money. But for some reason we are ok, financially right now.

I have been taking Michael to the park with Ellie. It's been alot of fun watching him and I am relishing this time.
I have also been given the opportunity to watch a little boy a couple days a week and it has been so much fun watching the two boys play with each other. I need this and Michael is the best son ever!