What an amazing few weeks this has been just being able to spend with Michael. On Monday Michael, Ellie and I went to the park and just played for about 2 hours. Michael was having SO much fun and LOVES the slide. Hearing him laugh as he was going down on his belly by himself or on his bum holding my hands was so much fun. There was another little boy there with his grandma and the two of them were just playing together. They were having so much fun, and I was probably having more fun watching them.
I am truly trying to cherish this time as I am not sure how long it will or can last. I am amazed that families can survive on just one income. I would love to be able to, but I am not convinced we will be able to dispite what Mike says. I have worked since I was 16, with really no time off (exception of 2 1/2 weeks when we moved to Vegas 5 years ago) that I am feeling really "off" right now.
I feel guilty being home, and not working. And I feel like a part of me is gone. I know that may sound strange to all my stay at home mommies, but I have never been a stay at home mom, nor did I ever think I would/could. It's sad that one defines themselves by their career/job and not their family or children. This is a very important life lesson for me that I can't nor should I be defined by my title/job. I want to be known as Michael's mom, and not the Traffic Manager of such and such company.
I know I have the best husband ever, as he has been a rock durning this and always trying to cheer me up.
Not quite sure about the move to Dallas at this point. May not happen as planned, but we are/will be moving out of Vegas.
Keep everyone posted!!
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