Jennifer's Funeral

Losing a parent like I did when my dad passed away back in 1997 was a cake walk in comparison to losing my sister Jennifer on April 9. Even though we talked about this possibility, NEVER did I think it would actually happen. It's so surreal to think that Jennifer is gone. I still can't really come to accept that part yet. I don't know when I will be OK with what has happened, but I know in my heart Jennifer has forgiven me and I just need to forgive myself, and maybe that is what I am struggling with and will for quite some time.   I close my eyes and I think of Jennifer.   I haven't really slept well since she passed away, and believe me I AM TIRED!    Jennifer was lucky in that she didn't suffer, she went to sleep on Easter Sunday(4/8) and just didn't wake up.   We don't know what happened and hopefully the autopsy will give us some answers or closure. 
Reading her facebook account I know she wasn't feeling good the week leading up to her death.  Her friends at church whom I spoke to at the funeral told me she didn't go to church on Sunday because she wasn't feeling good.  So something was happening.  I know she is in a better place.  She is where we all want to be.  She is with our dad and her beloved son Jason who passed away.  Now she gets to raise him while Jorge gets the honor of taking care of Josh and Jonah now.   I have no doubt Jorge will do a fantastic job, and the boys will always remember their mom.

Miss you Jenn!

Janette (jennifer's twin), me and Kasie (Janette's youngest)

Funny thing that happened after the service to the cemetery, mom for some reason thought that WE had Janette and Kasie.  Not sure why she thought that, so those two were left back at the church and of course we ALL had our phones turned off as Janette is trying to call ALL OF US.  I was about to hop in my car and go back and get them when I got Mike to call Janette and she got a ride from a childhood friend of ours - thank goodness.  I had Jorge make everyone WAIT until Janette got there. Something funny we will all remember from this day.  At least we got a chuckle.

Kasie & I

Mike and I

We kept Michael from the funeral and he stayed with grandma (mike's mom)  I had been crying all week and we decided that Michael was just to young to comprehend what was going on.  After we lost our little girl, Michael went through about a month of problems because he saw me so upset.  He was just getting back to "normal" when Jennifer passed away.  We had Mike's mom drop Michael off at the church for the luncheon after the services, so he could see family & friends who were there.

That is mom sitting in front of me.

Good bye my sister, until we see you again!